Thursday, June 28, 2012

have faith.

So today is a gloomy day that topped off a semi-crappy week.

I hate to complain about where we live. It's Hawaii. It's paradise. So many people would love to live here. 
I get it. 

Don't get me wrong- it is wonderful. And it is beautiful. 
If I could just build a bridge from here to Texas, then I think I'd stay forever. Or maybe I can just become a millionaire and buy a private jet? Or if one of you has one, maybe you could let me borrow it sometime?

Anyway my point is that although it's amazing in so many ways, one thing that has been very hard for us is being away from family. (Well that and being away from Texas food but that's a different subject.)
It's especially hard during rough times. Like today. And this month in general. It breaks my heart that I can't be there with my family. It makes me feel helpless. Even if I couldn't actually help the situation, it still feels good to be there, physically, with someone that you care about.

I'm a worrier. I'm one of those people that obsesses about a situation until I'm sick about it. I lose sleep over it. I stop eating because of it. 
But what's the point? Worrying doesn't make anything better.

I'm basically talking to myself here because even though I'm writing this, I'm worrying as I type.

This sure has been a lesson in faith. 

I don't want to go into details about what's going on but I would really appreciate prayers for my family.

Here's to a weekend that's better than this week was!


Anonymous said...

Leaving you some blogger love Jessica!! I'll be praying for you, hope you find some peace soon. <3 :HUG:


Pamela said...

I could have written this blog post many times over - only difference is I AM in Texas - but 500 miles away from MY family. I am also a worrier - doesn't help - but sometimes just not easy to control, right?

Sending you blog love n' hugs - hang in there~

Holly said...

I've been having a rough week too! Hope it gets better for you!

and I live in cali and my family lives in Texas so I totally understand where you're coming from.

lastly, I agree about the Texas food :) soo amazing!

Chris said...

Oh Jessica... I know exactly what you're going through right now as I'm going through something similar. We try so hard to stay positive and be hopeful and have faith, but some days it take one little thing to break me and I fall apart. We're human after all... emotions and having them come out is natural. But on those days it's the love of family that's a good remedy. If I had a plane I would lend it to you because I know all too well how you feel! Thinking of you!

Mrs. Newlywed Giggles said...

Keeping you all in my prayers.

Sandra said...

Sending you hugs and praying for your family. Stay strong and keep faith for them!

Sam said...

im your new
follower :)


Kat said...

Hello! Following you from the Aloha Friday hop! Looking forward to reading more! Would appreciate the follow back!
Have a great weekend!!! :)

Carly said...

I'm so sorry, it sounds like you have a ton on your mind! Will be praying for you!


Krysten @ Why Girls Are Weird said...

Oh hon, I'm sorry things are crappy. Sending love your way!

becky said...

Jessica ... I don't know if it helps ... but you are not alone. It does help sometimes to actually put stuff into words. I don't know why ... but it keeps me from going over and over it in my head.
Don't know what your worry is right now ... but I know the kind of feeling your talking about. I will also keep you in my prayers tonight. Feel free to reach out here ... anytime. I'm a good listener.